[Dimitri has been having such an End Of February. So much has happened. It kind of keeps happening? He'd like for it to stop. Ecruteak was supposed to be nice.]
[As it is, it's been full of secrets, and comas, and a small child suddenly running away because depression. It's been So Much that Dimitri almost forgets something that he wanted to do... but, as they're on the road and he's riding in the rat sleigh, it hits him again.]
[Right. He should start making some calls.]
[So after waking up from one of his twenty minute naps, Dimitri stays inside so that he can start hitting up people. Just... ignore the fact that it doesn't look like he's been sleeping at all. He has! Just, you know. Not great!]
Hello, Scorpia. I hope you're having a good day. I believe I have a good date for the picnic that I promised you, if you are free later this month. I have been told of a tradition called flower viewing that is apparently wonderful, and should always be experienced, so I thought it might be nice to match them up.
((OOC: Probably easiest to handwave her original replies, since it turned out that she wouldn't be coming in the end. so!))
[Scorpia's original response had been enthusiastic, but a few days before the date, Scorpia sends another reply message to the invite, audio only, and a little sniffling can be heard, even though she's trying to muffle it.]
I um... I don't think I'll be able to come. I was really looking forward to it but um. My friend--
Catra? Did you know her? Probably not. She was kind of a loner a lot. But she's gone. I can't find her, and her 'gear number isn't on my list anymore. And I don't want to ruin your picnic with my sad self. I need to just be not here for a while, you know? I'm sorry.
[Ah. Dimitri's heart goes out to Scorpia as he listens to her update.]
Feel no need to apologize, Scorpia. If you need this time for yourself, I understand completely.
Would you like me to send you some food? There is nothing that can replace a dear friend... but I hope to make the time spend grieving a little more comfortable.
I wouldn't mind, but um, I'm on Victory Road. It was... Well, it's supposed to be really tough, so I'm sure I won't have a lot of time to think about missing Catra, you know? Just gotta keep going until you can push it down and hide it away.
[Yeah, that... that definitely sounds like a Faerghus method of coping with things. And if there's something that Dimitri has learned since coming to Johto, it's that perhaps the Faerghs method of coping is perhaps not the best.]
I ... don't know? I mean, it's kind of what I've always done, part of my morning routine. "Push down crippling doubts and insecurities!" Because I'm brave, I'm loyal, and I give the best hugs. That's Scorpia. Not... errr, sad me.
..I think... You would still be yourself, if you showed that you were sad. Because to be sad all on your own is...
...It is an incredibly lonely experience. And I would hate for you to be lonely, Scorpia. I was all on my own for five very long years. You... don't deserve even a fraction of that.
I think you can be brave, loyal, and with the best hugs even when you are sad. Can't you?
Oh no, don't feel upset because of me! I'm used to being lonely, really. I grew up with it, and I got around it by being really good at things and cheerful and helpful! So it's not that I don't think I'd still be me if I'm sad me; it's kind of that other people would leave if I was sad me? That's how it always was in the Horde.
The other Force Captains mostly let me be around them because I was happy and dependable and I listened when they had complaints and gave them compliments and encouragements! I... somehow I don't think a single one even noticed I had left until they needed or wanted something from me...
[Scorpia is not wrong in that assessment unfortunately.]
Oh yeah! Perfuma and Entrapta. And maybe some of the others might have, if we'd had time? We were kind of in the middle of trying not to be invaded while being really outnumbered and stuff.
[Then, softer.]
I don't think most people in the Horde were bad; a lot of them had been taken in as kids or babies like me, and raised by the Horde. Catra is a good person, but she is all prickly and focuses really hard on being better than everybody, kind of like how I work hard to be helpful and cheerful. She was learning how to be a good friend here but...
[Scorpia trails off, but the 'she's gone' is hanging there like a thundercloud.]
[There's a moment of silence on Dimitri's end, his own struggle not to say something unkind about those people. If Scorpia is as she says... He has to believe her. Besides, if they took someone like her and made her feel this way...]
...You will see her again, I am sure.
Do... you have anyone here, Scorpia? Who will listen to you in the same way? Your troubles and complaints?
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Date: 2021-03-05 02:32 am (UTC)[As it is, it's been full of secrets, and comas, and a small child suddenly running away because depression. It's been So Much that Dimitri almost forgets something that he wanted to do... but, as they're on the road and he's riding in the rat sleigh, it hits him again.]
[Right. He should start making some calls.]
[So after waking up from one of his twenty minute naps, Dimitri stays inside so that he can start hitting up people. Just... ignore the fact that it doesn't look like he's been sleeping at all. He has! Just, you know. Not great!]
Hello, Scorpia. I hope you're having a good day. I believe I have a good date for the picnic that I promised you, if you are free later this month. I have been told of a tradition called flower viewing that is apparently wonderful, and should always be experienced, so I thought it might be nice to match them up.
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Date: 2021-04-05 04:37 am (UTC)[Scorpia's original response had been enthusiastic, but a few days before the date, Scorpia sends another reply message to the invite, audio only, and a little sniffling can be heard, even though she's trying to muffle it.]
I um... I don't think I'll be able to come. I was really looking forward to it but um. My friend--
Catra? Did you know her? Probably not. She was kind of a loner a lot. But she's gone. I can't find her, and her 'gear number isn't on my list anymore. And I don't want to ruin your picnic with my sad self. I need to just be not here for a while, you know? I'm sorry.
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Date: 2021-04-06 02:16 am (UTC)Feel no need to apologize, Scorpia. If you need this time for yourself, I understand completely.
Would you like me to send you some food? There is nothing that can replace a dear friend... but I hope to make the time spend grieving a little more comfortable.
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Date: 2021-04-16 06:48 am (UTC)[Scorpia, that is not a good coping method.]
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Date: 2021-04-17 06:55 am (UTC)...Do you need to hide it away, Scorpia?
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Date: 2021-05-01 02:44 am (UTC)[There's a long pause on her end.]
I ... don't know? I mean, it's kind of what I've always done, part of my morning routine. "Push down crippling doubts and insecurities!" Because I'm brave, I'm loyal, and I give the best hugs. That's Scorpia. Not... errr, sad me.
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Date: 2021-05-02 05:08 pm (UTC)...It is an incredibly lonely experience. And I would hate for you to be lonely, Scorpia. I was all on my own for five very long years. You... don't deserve even a fraction of that.
I think you can be brave, loyal, and with the best hugs even when you are sad. Can't you?
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Date: 2021-05-03 12:18 am (UTC)The other Force Captains mostly let me be around them because I was happy and dependable and I listened when they had complaints and gave them compliments and encouragements! I... somehow I don't think a single one even noticed I had left until they needed or wanted something from me...
[Scorpia is not wrong in that assessment unfortunately.]
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Date: 2021-05-03 06:24 pm (UTC)Have you ever had someone who would listen to your complaints, Scorpia? Or encourage you?
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Date: 2021-05-03 09:51 pm (UTC)[Then, softer.]
I don't think most people in the Horde were bad; a lot of them had been taken in as kids or babies like me, and raised by the Horde. Catra is a good person, but she is all prickly and focuses really hard on being better than everybody, kind of like how I work hard to be helpful and cheerful. She was learning how to be a good friend here but...
[Scorpia trails off, but the 'she's gone' is hanging there like a thundercloud.]
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Date: 2021-05-04 05:16 pm (UTC)...You will see her again, I am sure.
Do... you have anyone here, Scorpia? Who will listen to you in the same way? Your troubles and complaints?